Tuesday, December 29, 2009

love life le travels


My new girlfriend, I mean victim.

I only kid my dear. When I see you my heart beats faster. You have finally mended my broken heart.

One day I hope we can get out of this hell hole called America and live in the civilized world, like Holland.

Sunday, July 20, 2008

I saw you again today.

If it weren't for your friends being there, I would've bashed your face in.

There once was a time I loved you, but now I hate you with every fiber of my being.

Everything thats wrong with me today, every dead brain cell, every severed nerve, thats thanks to you.

I've been twisted into something I didn't realize I could become.

I was once full of Love, now I'm full of Anger and Hatred.

Don't worry dear, hush now, it won't be that long.

I might spare a friend or two, but most of them will have to be, how do you say, acceptable sacrifices?

If it weren't for the fact this country had laws against it, i'm pretty sure a good portion of your friends wouldn't be here today.

Don't worry though dear, I'd keep you alive, what good would you be dead? I'm pretty sure you prefer mutilation over death right?

Thursday, July 17, 2008

Walk On

And I know it aches, and your heart it breaks, you can only take so much... walk on...

Sunday, July 13, 2008

Embrace Hatred, Fear, and Anger.

Thursday, July 10, 2008

'Can't you see that the world hates you now? You're not wanted.'

Why is it that everything gets to be the same downwards spiral?

I'll never leave this goddamned piece of shit fucking place until at least my sophomore year of college

I have a resistance to pills now, four melatonin and still nothing, oh boy

Odds are my ex hates me and we're never getting back together

Oh, and i'm listening to Linkin Park

if it weren't for the fact that it'd get me nowhere, i'd probably be dead already

I'll paint it on the walls, because i'm the one that falls, i'll never fight again, and this is how it ends.

Sunday, July 6, 2008

"Just watch your back man, Love makes you blind."

I just wish my friends weren't right, for once.

Thursday, July 3, 2008


Have you ever noticed it?

Everyone is waiting

Everyone, Everything

You have to admit, everyone is waiting for something, be it for something soon, or something later, a week, a month, even years.

We all wait, regardless of whether we want to or not, we don't have a choice.

It's the very essence of time, time moves of its own will, its just how we perceive it does.

Fast? Slow? It's up to your perception.

Vicis exspecto pro nemo

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

We're gonna run run run to the Cities of the Future, take what we can and bring it back home, so take me down to the Cities of the Future, where everybodies happy and I feel at home.


Well I find myself going away, never wanting to go back again.  Leaving all my thoughts behind, searching for some new ones inside...

I found myself, I found myself, I found myself, I found myself, I found myself, I found myself, I know myself, I know myself!

-Insert Trance Breakdown Here-

Monday, June 30, 2008


Sunday, June 29, 2008

Watching Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

Something going off in my system


hurts, thought=bad

give me a fucking plane dammit, a fucking plane and fucking fuel, and some Euros while we're at it.


Friday, June 27, 2008

"-And For The Moon Be Still As Bright"

What is the defining course in life? What choices are there to make?

We must look at the current choices:

To Do Something you really wanted to do for the past four months, even though the road may be hard, you are willing to get past it to attain what you seek, but you aren't sure that in the end it will be really worth it, because afterwards there will be more obstacles,

To Do Something as hard as, if not harder, than the preceding, but in which what happens is entirely unknown to you, and in which doing, will sacrfice seeing your friends for an undetermined amount of time.

or To Not Do Anything, in which would keep things as they are now, but unhappiness is confirmed.

What is the choice to make in life at such crossroads? What questions are we to ask of ourselves and of others? What to do when the world has forsaken you as the day does of night?

Answers to life's questions are never easy.

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Barely did anything this weekend, other then be jet lagged, did go to the mall once. Lifes getting pretty much back to normality.

Monday, June 23, 2008

I Feel the Rhythm in my Soul, Just Have Your Body Let Go

Well its an LTM day, woke up slightly early to do Inglese work, and I'm just kind of lying here, now done, enjoying the "beauty" of Trance music. I got a new live set last night, which I am enjoying quite much.

Ferry Corsten is Amazing, just wanted to get that out there.
Haha! Its crazy! I'm fucking happy for once! On the night of the first day after my last post I met a wonderful girl from New York who's in Italy with her classmates, shes a sophomore (I thought she might have been a freshman), and goes to an all girls school (don't think anything of it, basically its a normal school sans boys.). Shame she was at the hotel we'd be only spend one night at, so now i'm stuck looking around the streets on the days I know shes in Rome. Also, as odd as it sounds, i've been "checked out" (for lack of a better term) by several Italian girls, who when I notice them, just tilt my head and smile. The city is amazing, I love it. So I'm going to head out for now, I might be on around now tommorrow.

Sunday, June 22, 2008

I want out. Seriously, I do. I want to get out of this place, i'd enjoy shredding my american passport so much. Seriously people, do I belong here? Do I? No I don't. Really, theres one reason I'd want to stay here, and that person already knows, but if that doesn't happen, fuck this place. Sure, I have my friends, but as much as I like them, they fit under the "acceptable sacrifices" category. If I have to stop speaking english I will. Sure, odds are I'd end up speaking a language like Dutch, but if anyone has heard me or anyone speaking it, it's pretty crazy language. I think realizing I was a Dutch citizen and getting my passport was one of the best things to ever happen to me. Fuck America, the EU is 1000x better.

Don't you, forget about me.

Don't Don't Don't

Don't you forget about me.

Will you stand above me?

Look my way?

Never love me?

Rain keeps falling, rain keeps falling, down down down.

Will you recognize me? Call my name or walk on by?

Rain keeps falling, rain keeps falling, down down down down.

Saturday, June 21, 2008

Rome is Love

Lets see, what's happened since the last time I updated... Went to the Vatican yesterday, it was ok, then off to the Musei Vaticani which was grand. Afterwards I was walking around outside the exit and these Spanish girls kept taking looks at me and giggling when I got close. I walked up to them and after about ten minutes of trying to speak the others language and laughing at eachother stupidity, the main one I was talking to goes "I really like your eyes, thats what I wanted to see." (something like that.) Basically, flirting when you barely know the others language (well over two years of spanish and I still can barely speak it outside of class.) will at least 75% of the time be crazed body movements and horrid attempts at speaking the others language. God I love this city, and a special girl who I keep looking for because I'm hoping to see her one more time. I just love walking around at night, for the times I was at the bookstore walking across the Tiber into Trastevere. Right now I'm at an Irish pub, where I was last night as well, and its great. Spending the rest of my nights at the Campo di Fiori or at the Piazza Navona. It's going to really suck going back home, because compared to this place its an utter shithole, my friends are there, but at least here girls are actually interested in me. Well I'll be on around now tommorrow, see you. I love Europe : )
I'm in Rome right now. Our flight left like two hours late from Miami due to thunderstorms, and when we arrived at Milan-Malpensa we had just missed our connection, along with at least thirty other people (thats enough for them to hold the plane you fools!). So after a bit of a fiasco we got transferred to Milan-Lante(?) and then flew to Rome finally.

Anyway, I feel like such utter shit, its 20.48 here right now, and I dunno. I don't know why but i'm depressed way too much now, but it's not like I can do anything about that. I just don't feel right here, but it's not like I feel right at home, I guess god chose for me to live a shoddy unmeaningful existence. I just wish something could go right for once, just for once.

Is that too much to ask?

I'll catch you guys around this time tommorrow.

Thursday, June 19, 2008




Did-did-did-did-did you see the frightened ones?

Did-did-did-did-did you hear the falling bombs?

Did-did-did-did-did ever wonder why we had to run for shelter when the promise of a brave new world unfell beneath the clear blue sky?



Did-did-did-did-did you see the frightened ones?

Did-did-did-did-did you hear the falling bombs?

The flames are long gone but the pain lingers on

Goodbye Blue Sky!

Goodbye Blue Sky!



Wednesday, June 18, 2008

There's something about foreign music. Be it Russian, German, Dutch, Italian, Romanian, and so on. Be it Pop, Techno/Trance, Rock, and so on. It must be the fact that a lot of times you can't tell what their saying, its the fact its good, and yet how its so unknown. Its just so calming sometimes...



Sunt eu, un haiduc.
Si te rog, iubirea mea primeste fericirea.

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Today (17th of March in the Age of the Lord MMIV) I will be leaving for Rome, Italy, via Milan. We shall be staying in a Flat near the Piazza Navona until the afternoon of the 25th (leave a comment if you want to make plans for the 25th, 26th, or 27th.). If you want to reach me in Rome, if I find an internet cafe, I will most likely be on in the evening (i.e. six or later) which will be from noon EST to maybe four or five due to Rome being on Central European Time. Now, there is a slight chance I will spend the money in my wallet ($100, 25 Euros, 10 NZD) to buy a train ticket (yes I have enough) to either London via Paris, or I will end up in the Principality of Licteinstein or the Principality of San Marino due to whatever Diplomatic Immunities I'll get there (if someone tries to drag me back to the states.) I'll see you guys later today before I leave towards better horizons.

Just for your information, I will no longer be the same person, enjoy.