Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Viaggia Insieme A Me

Today was pretty decent, hung out at Jake/Nick's with them and Mark until Mark and Nick left. Sat around, played video games, surfed the net, ate Pizza. Listened to Jake's parents scream at him about his D in Biology. It was good enough for a saturday I guess. Whatever, I'd consider life good, but there is the definite act of a feminine presence, and there might be a slight doubt about UMF7... Oh well, good enough.

German  Panzerkampfwagen VI Tiger
You're a German Tiger Tank (Panzer VI)

You were the backside punter of battlefields. When
Michel Wittman and his crew drove you around like the
blood-thirsty aryans they were, you blew up 273
american/soviet armor units on your own. All
that thanks to a big ass cannon and a
Berlin-Wall thick armor. You did have some
serious drawbacks like costs of production and
complex maintenance but we can't really expect
something else from Germans. Conclusion: You
probably rule.

Which WWII Tank are you ?
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Thursday, April 24, 2008

From New York, London, to Amsterdam... Let's Fuck... I want to Rock Your Body, Rock

It's kind of weird when you consider it, how relative everything truly is, how you can destroy someone's existence in yours if you want to, how you can work to make it seem like they never existed. Ever seen those posters that say "Everything is possible if you set your mind to it!" Well those are correct to a point. I've been trying something and its rather sad when you see your memories destroying themselves "in front of your eyes (Ok, not exactly "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind" style)". But we all have our sacrifices to make and I think its time I made mine. For Spring Break we're getting a Flat in Roma and the odds are most definitely favour of me going to UMF7. So woo... Oh, and I'm at jake's right now.

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Move Your Body Body, Move Your Mind, Everybody body

Not Much happened today, LTM day, got up late, went to school. Had fun, I pissed brad off by squeezing his broken thumb, if it makes him feel better I'll let him punch my [Supposedly] Broken Rib. Today I also started an effort to form a Russian Mafia/Yakuza Wellington. Right now, other than myself, we have three members, including an overseas agent based in Honolulu. I also found out we're going to Rome for Spring Break (EU again Biznotches!) and that I'll get back on the 25th which means I can go to Ultra Music Festival 7! All I need to see is if Jacob Tibbs, Matt, and Maybe Jacob Haft are in. Heh, I'm turning into a Raver/Techno Junkie, its Neat.

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Blue are the People Here who Walk Around

Well I'm back kiddos! Been on a bit of a break, heh. I got a Cell Phone, which is pretty kickass, I got a remote for my iPod, and my mother got a Jaguar. Spring Break this year is going to be awesome. We're either A) Going to London to see my aunt (from NZ) who's at an internet (?) convention/conference, and then heading to either Copenhagen (by plane or train) or to Rome (by plane or train) or B) We're staying here and I'm going to UMF7 with some friends and maybe... *cries* that Maroon 5 concert... why? because considering who we get around here, we should cheer to get Maroon 5... oh and maybe that U2 concert (whenever it is.) Blue (da Ba Dee) reminds me of my past... its interesting... 1999 Biznotches! Catch you guys later.

Monday, April 21, 2008


Well I cut the lines, and it actually does feel good, tommorrow I'm heading to Jacob Tibbs house, and I'll post about me going to the fair on monday. Wooooo, It's over kiddos.


Do you see these marks on my arms? You gave me them, not me. Do you sense the part of my mind that destroyed itself everytime I had to numb myself? Not my fault. Do you feel the way I feel everytime I see you and my heart seizes up and my senses all flare? No couldn't be me, couldn't feasibly be. Do you know how I felt when I realized that I was alone and I would never feel your heart beating beside mine again? But in the end it doesn't really matter does it? Nothing matters to you, because I am nothing, I am the wonderful creation of the dregs of modern day society, I am Justin Andrew Willems, but that is all, a name among six billion others, if I disappeared it wouldn't effect everyone, or really anyone for that matter. Well I have new plans, its time to pack my bags and leave, hopefully I'll get my mother to agree to it once she sells the rest of my properties, my father would probably go along with it. I have new plans, on New Years we said to us, and now its to me, it's to NZ Summer `05 and if all goes well, London `06 and all years thereafter. I have nothing holding me back anymore, and if you were smart you should not care when I'm gone. Have a Nice Day.

Sunday, April 20, 2008


Why does my mind not allow me to stop thinking about her? Why does everything I try fail miserably? Why does it seem to stop I'd have to drug myself into a near-catatonic state, which I do not want to do. Why does it seem that god closed my door but didn't open my window? When will this end? When will my parents just move us to London so I can just forget about this place and pretend it never happened. God, if there was any a time I'd rather be in NZ it'd be now...

Thursday, April 17, 2008


Well I finally got my mom to (Re, as in think about it again, even though she was planning on it anyway)think us moving overseas, which is pretty much good news, even though I'll miss my friends, I do think London or Rotterdam (or my second choice, Liverpool, Ol` Merseyside) would be pretty awesome.  Not much happened this weekend, felt like shit, slept at jakes house for two nights, went to the movies two nights, had parties at jakes including myself, Nick, Jake, Mark, Mike, and Tim, which was pretty awesome, I'm planning on going to the fair tommorrow, which will help me get my mind off things, hopefully, its that, or waiting until Mark gets some percosets, oh well. 

I Can't Sleep Tonight, everybody is saying everything's all right, still I can't close my eyes,  I'm seeing a tunnel at the end of all these light's... Sunny Days,  oh where have you gone?  I get the strangest feeling... you belong.   Why Does it always rain on me? Is it because I like when I was seventeen?  Why does it always rain on me? Even when the sun is shining I can't avoid the lightnin`  Where did the blue sky go?  Why is it raining so cold... so cold...

Travis- Why Does it Always Rain on Me?

ok ok shut up, I felt like writing that, because I like the song, and its good, especially when you feel like shit.  Oh and apparently the day I got dumped I became a crazed Billy Idol fan, which Jake wants to beat me for.


You Are 23 Years Old
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

New Years

Well its another New Year *blows whistle thingy* I spent my New Years with Jessica. We spent time together at my house, before going to a family friend's party, and then went back to my place for midnight. But parents are so bloody hypocritical, they want me to have sex with her, but god forbid we sleep together. I woke up three times that night, partially because I was still pissy at my parents. Today was spent with, guess who, Jessica again. But she ended up having to go at five because she was grounded for not doing the dishes, haha. But all in all, not a bad way to start the New Year.

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Wooo, Curacao

I'm in Curacao right now, its about +1 from EST due to daylight savings. Its been pretty good, boring and hot for the past few days, I got here on the twenty-fourth. Got $100 USD and 50 Guilders for Christmas. Mostly been going out then vegging out. Went to Dennys on Christmas and went around Otrabanda, and then went to a party christmas night, that was awesome, it was at the place overlooking the harbour. Went to the Yacht Club near our weekend house yesterday, and today we drove around, went to Punda... twice (first time earlier couldn't find a parking spot, so we went back later.). Firecrackers went on sale today! Awesome! There are firecrackers/fireworks going off on the entire island, you can hear them, its like a warzone, and as we near New Years it will just get worse... wooo! Tonight we were setting off a lot, a whole carpet too. So yeah, my ears hurt, its been awesome, but I am looking forward to coming back on the thirty-first. So yeah, I'll see you guys soon.

Thursday, April 10, 2008

Jessica, Exams, and the Wonderfulness of Footie

Today I had Geometry and Debate for exams, Geometry was easy, and Debate wasn't an exam. Exam week has been a bitch, but hey, more time out of school. I got a Digital Camera yesterday, its pretty neat. Today I went to Jessica's after school. Luckily for me, they have digital cable which meant one thing... Fox Sports World baby. I watched Sky Sports News (Sky News is essentially the English CNN) and then the beginning of a game between Werder Bremen and Bayern Munich (German Bundesliga... eh). We then did other random stuff, and then to my luck, there was a Manchester United (woo!) and Crystal Palace game at three. Sadly though, my favourite player, Ruud van Nistelrooy, was out on a hamstring (?) injury. Manchester United still beat Crystal Palace (one of the seven London Clubs, it just recently came back into the Premiership from one of the secondary leagues.) 5-2. To my luck, I got Jessica into footie, so hopefully we'll have another Manchester United/Ajax Amsterdam fan going around. I have Biology and Spanish II exams tommorrow, uhoh. Today was a good day though.

Wednesday, April 9, 2008


The Plans.... Next week I'm royally fucked, after that I'm off to Curacao from the twenty-fourth to the (i'm guessing) twenty-ninth/thirtieth.  I'm glad to be going though, I get a break, and I get a chance to see the relatives.  I'm going to probably have internet access so that'll be a plus and a minus (I won't have internet withdrawal, but I'll be stuck talking to the lot of you.).  I'll probably be spending a lot of my time blowing shit up with firecrackers and what not (Crazy Dutch Christmas's/New Year's).  But whats more fun than putting M180's into half-liter bottles and throwing them off one of my relative's houses on a cliff into Willemstad Harbour? Its a Dutch Commonwealth, so I'm a citizen (well, being that it is technically The Netherlands.). Then I come back to the states and go on a cruise on Holland-America.  After that... well oh boy... school.  Been in a shitty mood, but I always have my friends to cheer me up: DirtyPoorKid: hey justin
ShiningDomon325: hey
DirtyPoorKid: your testicles are belong to us
ShiningDomon325: grand
DirtyPoorKid: felicitious, no?
ShiningDomon325: haha
DirtyPoorKid: i wish to be known as... Jake the dot communist!
ShiningDomon325: ...

Tuesday, April 8, 2008


At least some people love me, I may be a guy, but I still find this cute. Meh.

Sunday, April 6, 2008

Random Update

Feel like shit, but hey, at least I was happy for a half hour today, good enough I guess.

Its a nice day for a white wedding... its a nice day to start again... its a nice day to start again...

Saturday, April 5, 2008

Saturday Partying, and The Communist Republic of Palm Beach

Well today was spent sitting around at home for the first couple of hours, and then heading over to Jake/Nick's where Tim and Mark also were. We spent awhile playing Xbox and partying like crazy idiots. Tim and Mark eventually left so it was Nick, Jake, and I. We have several inside jokes that came from the movie "Coneheads", and me, of course having a condom on me, show it to nick and mention the "Chewing gum" joke (in the movie the guy conehead thought condoms were chewing gum) I did it to him later, and he thought it was a pack of gum and said "You're not having that whole thing, share it with me" So me and Jake start cracking up and I tell Nick "Sure lets share it, let me tell you." While Nick laughs at his own mistake. We also sat around, Watching Austin Powers: International Man of Mystery, and during the commericals, 1984 (Me and Jake did the B.B. Ingsoc thing a couple of times.). I then went home because I didn't feel like spending the night, even though I think I should have.

Mark mentioned about the time he thought of me when he saw a picture with the Hammer and Sickle on a pack of Ecstasy. We laughed, and then him or Nick (not quite sure) mentioned how in their history class how they talked about how Communism would work on the Island of Palm Beach (yes! another republic to join our cause!). So how about it? Anyone interested in helping me have Palm Beach break off from the Union and become a bastion of Communism? Please?

Friday, April 4, 2008

Spending the Night with Jessica

Well school was no biggie, just rather tired from getting sick, again, from Jessica, even though it was my cold to begin with. Went to Jessica's after school. Nothing really big, just cuddled for about six hours, but then had to hide in her closet, because today/yesterday and wednesday we've been playing the "her mother/family should not know I'm here" game. So I got stuck in a closet for fifteen minutes while some of her family was in the room, and then after what seemed like forever, they finally left, and she came back (after I called her cell phone to get her attention.). I did have to end up climbing out through the window, but it wasn't that bad, I don't mind putting up with a little bit of crap in order to see her for awhile (well, tonight it was a long time.). It was a lovely night.

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

Your lips move but I can't hear what you say

Today was shitty and boring, and the fact I still have Jet Lag didn't help.  I have managed to do something I quite love, with some mental effort, and sleeping pills, I have reached the point of complete neutrality, which is quite possibly the most wonderful thing that can be felt.

Ok ok ok... just a little pin prick, no need more ahhhhahahhhh but you may feel a little sick.  Can you stand up?  I do believe its working... good.  That'll keep you going for the show.  C'mon its time to go.

There is no pain you are receding.  A distant ship smoke on the horizon.  You are only coming through in waves.  Your lips move but I can't hear what you say.  When I was a child I caught a fleeting glimpse,     out of the corner of my eye, I turned to look but it was gone,  I cannot put my finger on it now,  the child is gone, the dream is gone.   

I-I-I have become comfortably numb.